Dramaqueen

Alright World, here is the next drama.

Since the last post, where I felt extraordinary good, reality came back to me BIG time. Even after I managed to get my grip and do my job application documents, now I tend to fear any positive feedback coming in, like a request for an interview or so. I should not have celebrated too soon. At least I have lost some weight, which is by far not enough, but each time I put on a pants, I am happy that I am now able to least breath half of my lung now and if I am continuing, I might breath completely by the end of this months. Great opportunity, lets celebrate with Steak, Salad and Fries...! lol

What is even more disturbing is, that my great feeling on what I am actually able to do as it is listed in my CV now, I am doubting again. But not enough, because I will be without income in three weeks, and I seem not to bother at all...! :( What I notice is that friends of mine are getting annoyed and frustrated on my situation, since the actual distance to kick my ass is too far for them to overcome. Oh well, get used to that level of frustration, I deal with that since three years now...!

OH! and since I am sneeking onto flirt since the end of last months, when I visited one of my friends on there to "support" his winning in the promotion, I am going back under different names on hourly basis every second day. But to fight that one addiction, I created a new one: TADAAAH, I am on twitter now. lol We will see if the Twitter universe is big enough for me.

More hot stuff coming soon. PS: Did anyone read my story and how was it??? lol

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